Clerkship in Ospital ng Maynila
All PLM students in PLM will have their clerkship at ospital ng maynila and those who are scholars until third year, regardless if you lost it once, will have your senior internship also at ospital ng maynila.
OBSTETRICS AND GYNECOLOGY
So clerkship came and I was so afraid of it to the point of having so much anxiety before entering clerkship. Yet it was inevitable. What was funny is that I was joking my friend that she would get OB as first rotation but deep inside, I could already feel it would me my first rotation and it did.
OB rotation in ospital ng maynila is very notorious in making people quit. During the first week of my rotation, one of my groupmates quit medicine. During the first two weeks, we were expressing how much we want to quit. Some were breaking down almost every day. I was however, still enjoying. In part that is because I loved OB. During second to third year, people would sleep at OB lectures but I didn't. I was always wide awake during OB-Gyne lectures and asleep in all other subjects. I also don't know how I maintained scholarship and caught up hahaha. So I was having fun but it was really difficult. In everything, you have to be very very fast or else you'll get scolded at or demerits for being inefficient. OB residents are also known for being snub and bad tempered. THIS I SAY! DO NOT BELIEVE EVERYTHING THAT YOU HEAR UNTIL YOU EXPERIENCE IT!
While it is true that you'll get scolded at sometimes, OB residents are nice people. You just have to do your job fast and efficiently. Aside from skills, what is being built up in OB is your EQ. It will break you to the point of making you quit or it will make you so that you'll be able to endure your anything, mentally.
My highlight in my OB rotation was realizing that maybe ob-gyne is not for me. It is not that I'm not good at it. I actually find myself excelling in the field but I feel that I have lost my love for obstetrics and gynecology. We have this anesthesia rotation in surgical departments including obstetrics, and I find it fascinating. I was enthralled when one of our anesthesiologists let me give the anesthetics to the patient. From preparation to spinal tapping to administering the anesthetics to the end. I liked skills and now I'm considering it.
Also, there is this big factor that I am considered as a toxic person in ob. we had 4 mortalities in ob during my rotation and three of them, they associate it to me when only in two of them I was actually in OB. the other one, I was an anesthesia rotator which is at the second floor. What hurt me was, one resident said I'm too toxic when i was already away but my toxicity still reached them. Also, there is this one resident who hated me to be in the ER. There was one time that resident had a minor operation and had difficulty and took so much time, longer than a cesarean section. That resident saw me as soon as the operation was finished. The resident's (sorry, I don't want to label the resident's gender to keep identity) eyes widened, teeth clenched. The resident told me off, said "diba sabi ko wag ka dito? anong ginagawa mo dito? hirap na hirap ako sa oparation!" Again it was attributed to me. The last of our mortality who was attributed to me while I was away, the same resident told me to go home instead of being there. the resident did not want to see me or know that I was still there and so our clerk's monitor who was also a resident asked me to leave early.
At that time, I slumped at my bed. I cried. Did i want them to die? Did I wish for it? I almost considered quitting because of it. I entered medicine because I wanted to know life but it seemed that I became a harbinger of doom was what filled my mind. I cried and prayed.
There are residents who when they see me, would ask me to leave their patients alone. They would tell me they have a toxic patient and ask me to stay away from those patients. One, who have a high position in the department even said that I could carry such toxicity until residency which really hurt me. I only want to do my job and genuinely want to take care of patients. I take it both as a learning experience and duty as a doctor but then I am treated as such. This is why I loved OB.
Other departments also label toxicity to people but I don't know how they are treated there. Here is my take. It is a mere superstition. If indeed toxic patients arrive during your tour of duty, then the more that you'll have opportunity to learn to manage such cases. It is up to you to believe it or not but who I believe in is my God. This is how God shapes me, prepares me to be where I am needed. Whatever other people say, I will endure and trust in my God. I do not know of that path He laid before me but I know that it is the best for me. I just have to walk head on because I do not walk alone. He is and will always be with me.
Still, I am thankful of what OB-GYN for everything that I learned there. I became good at IV insertion, I knew the hospital mechanics, I developed being fast, I knew what to do during codes, my mentality was made stronger, and I opened my door to other fields. For now I still do not know what field to specialize in but I pray that God would show me and take me where I am mostly needed.
Thank you OB-GYN department.
My next rotation is Pediatrics.
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